Today I don't feel worthy to write this post - We had company in town this weekend, and though I WORKED OUT, my eating habits were less then perfect.., We ate out nearly all of our meals because of the convenience with soo many people, and I can FEEL it in my energy level, my mood, and my 'gut'.
It is soo hard to withstand temptation - TGI Friday's, Smashburger, Penn Station - what does one who is trying to be 'healthy' order in these situations?? I went for what I considered 'lighter', 'chicken and shrimp' at Fridays, a grilled chicken instead of a burger at Smashburger, skipping the mayo at Penn Station. But when you look at the calories, and the lack of fruits, veggies, fiber.., you realize that it's not enough. You have to constantly and consistently make the effort to EAT RIGHT. When I have these 'cheat' days, it's not a reward.., it ends up being a bigger challenge to get motivated for the week ahead. I'm tired. I'm MORE hungry, I'm grumpy, and I'm overall NOT HAPPY.
Looking back to January 10th when I decided once and for all I'm going to LOSE this weight, I see my motivation lacking.., the past few weeks haven't been easy, and I've been frustrated. The close friends I had joining me in the journey are no longer on the journey, or soo extreme I can't keep up (no bread, no sugar, no nothing but meat and cottage cheese - but of course diet pills help curb your hunger, but I don't think that this is the HEALTHY way to get at your goal weight). I feel more alone, but in a way it makes me realize that I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DO THIS. I must DO IT FOR MYSELF! As long as I don't give up, and continue on, I know I will be successful. I have to work thru the hiccups, no one else can do it for me.
I have decided to keep myself accountable by daily listing my work out's and food diary online, and weekly posting my weight - I must keep on it, make it my #1 goal to get to that happy place I so desire. I'm not even talking a certain weight, or even a certain size, but when I can look in the mirror and say again, "DAMN I'M HOT", and have the self confidence & self worth that no matter what the number on the scale OR my jeans says, I KNOW I AM.
Way to own it! channel that energy and drive into setting those goals and write it all down.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are onto a great start. Keep it up and tweet out if you need any added motivation or a little from the "cheering section". Have a great week.
The fact that you notice a change in your mood, energy level, etc. shows just how much progress you've made!!! WTG!!!
ReplyDeleteYou have a great plan and a cheering section to help you through :) You've got this!!!
You are not alone! You have all of us :) It sounds like you are very determined which is great!
ReplyDeleteYou're NEVER unworthy, and it's so admirable of you to own the imperfections. Like Shelley said, noticing the difference it makes is a sign of the amazing progress you've made. Congratulations and keep that drive! It's going to take you far :)
ReplyDeleteYou are NEVER alone!!! I hope you know that you have a lot of Sistas behind you, rooting you on, celebrating wins and offering advice and thoughts when you need it!!
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